Healing from Trauma caused by Child Abuse

We have a loving Father who loves us the same as He loves Jesus. He sent His Son Jesus to live amongst us as a man and died on a cross for us, to reconcile us with our Father. After Jesus was raised from the death, He went back to His, our Father and He sent the Holy Spirit to come and live inside of us.

Sometimes we do not understand His love for us. And then when we ask Him for help and He does not bring the answer we would like, He still is a good Father.

We all went through life and things happened to us, some more traumatic than others. But when something happens to a child, it can be so traumatic that the human brain has the ability to press it into the subconscious and we can grow up without remembering what happened to us as a child.

Throughout my life I can remember one specific dream I had as far back as I could remember. This dream I had on a regular basis. The dream was always the same. I always woke up in terror. As a young child around 6 or 7 years old, I would run to my parent's bedroom and told them that I had a bad dream and then my father pulled back the covers at his feet and I could sleep with them.

As I grew older, my parents did not give much attention to me every time I run to them in the night, it happened too often and they thought that I just wanted to sleep at my father's feet and that I was looking for attention.

As years went by, I beg God to take this dream away, to free me from the night terrors, but it did not stop.

I got married and had children, but still from time to time a got the same dream and I woke up with the same terror and then beg God to take it from me. I was born again at the age of 6 as that was when my grandmother prayed with me. I learned from her how to pray, at the age of 6 and a half, my grandmother died after a car accident. The seed of prayer she sowed in me, kept me up to today.

One night around 2005, we lived near Koln and Willie worked night shifts. I was in my middle forties, I watched God TV and a man John Paul Jackson who was used by God in dream Interpretation, explained about re-recurring dreams. He said even if we experience it as night mares, it might be that God want to reveal something to us which was too traumatic for us to deal with and we should pray and ask God to prepare us to deal with whatever He will show us.

I prayed that and two nights later I had another dream. In my dream was a little girl who told me what happened to her. She told me in detail about someone who had sexually abused her. When I woke up, I knew that, that little girl was me. She gave me the name of the person, my parent's gardener.

The good news about this is that I never had that nightmare from the past ever again. Dealing with what happened to me was a total different story. I told Willie, he prayed with me, ministered communion to me and I was so grateful that the dreams stop that I was happy to go on with life. Besides it happened so many years ago, I am an adult and I had to get over it, so I thought.

As it was always in the back of my mind, I tried to deal with what happened by telling people about my dreams and the goodness of God that He had carried me through life.

Last year, November 2023 we went to a conference where a woman, Katie Souza spoke about how we obtain soul wounds because of trauma and how it effect our lives, our health and our interaction with people around us.

She mentioned some things that could happen to people and then she said that sexual abuse to children is one of the traumas people keep to themselves and guilt, shame and fear always haunt people.

People, even as adults still feel ashamed and blame themselves as the rapist always would put fear, guilt and shame on his or her victim.

Katie Souza asked anybody who was sexually abused as a child to stand. I was stunned to see how many people stood. Then she prayed for all of us and asked God to show as through dreams, visions and any way God chose the soul wounds and how to get our healing.

We came home from the conference and not long after I experienced the most unusual dreams in which a little girl got healing and freedom from all the hurt and pain from the past. During this time I knew that the little girl in my dreams was me. I found it difficult to interact with people during December 2023 and beginning of January 2024. I could not deal with people hugging me. Even Willie had to keep his distance for a while.

It was a process, a very lonely and hard process, but al this time my Father God was with me. I know He could take the nightmares away many years ago when I begged Him, but He did not just set me free from nightmares, He wanted to heal my soul wounds cause by the abuse and I needed to be ready to go through the process.

Today I am completely healed of the soul wounds and trauma caused by sexual abuse when I was a child. I do not have a problem to hug people and get close to people.

Father God gets all the Glory and honour. What He has done for me, He can do for everyone.

Anybody who want the process to start in your life for healing of soul wounds. It does not have to do with sexual abuse, it might be any trauma, a car accident, a love one who died. The trauma we all went through during covid. Anything you might need healing for.

The process starts by hugging each other. I believe that an impartation of love and healing can start with a hug. Allow God to start a process of healing in your life.